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Saturday, 07 November 2009

Thursday, 05 November 2009

  • Later, in the high mountains, we came across a baby VC water buffalo. What it was doing there I don't know--no farms or paddies--but we chased it down and got a rope around it and led it along to a deserted village where we set up for the night. After supper Rat Kiley went over and stroked its nose.

    He opened up a can of C rations, pork and beans, but the baby buffalo wasn't interested.

    Rat shrugged.

    He stepped back and shot it through the right front knee. The animal did not make a sound. It went down hard, then got up again, and Rat took careful aim and shot off an ear. He shot it in the hindquarters and in the little hump at its back. He shot it twice in the flanks. It wasn't to kill; it was to hurt. He put the rifle muzzle up against the mouth and shot the mouth away. Nobody said much. The whole platoon stood there watching, feeling all kinds of things, but there wasn't a great deal of pity for the baby water buffalo. Curt Lemon was dead. Rat Kiley had lost his best friend in the whole world. Later in the week he would write a long personal letter to the guy's sister, who would not write back, but for now it was a question of pain. He shot off the tail. He shot away chunks of meat below the ribs. All around us there was the smell of smoke and filth and deep greenery, and the evening was humid and very hot. Rat went to automatic. He shot randomly, almost casually, quick little spurts in the belly and butt. Then he reloaded, squatted down, and shot it in the left front knee. Again the animal fell hard and tried to get up, but this time it couldn't quite make it. It wobbled and went down sideways. Rat shot it in the nose. He bent forward and whispered something, as if talking to a pet, then he shot it in the throat. All the while the baby buffalo was silent, or almost silent, just a light bubbling sound where the nose had been. It lay very still. Nothing moved except the eyes, which were enormous, the pupils shiny black and dumb.

    Rat Kiley was crying. He tried to say something, but then cradled his rifle and went off by himself.

    The rest of us stood in a ragged circle around the baby buffalo. For a time no one spoke. We had witnessed something essential, something brand-new and profound, a piece of the world so startling there was not yet a name for it.

    Somebody kicked the baby buffalo.
    It was still alive, though just barely, just in the eyes.

Tuesday, 03 November 2009

Thursday, 29 October 2009

  • i qq

    blogging cause i'm bored..

    so, been going through some sort of selfish rut lately. i've been lazy, very lazy in all aspects of my life.

    lazy in my faith, lazy in school, lazy in my philosophy on life. i don't want to do anything...

    i should handle my emotions better and get off my ass, but i don't know why i feel like nothing is worth it or important.

    haha if my life could consist of helen, left 4 dead and watching tv shows online, i'd be pretty happy.

    i've become such a shut-in at sfsu. i don't go out unless i absolutely have to, i just stay in my room and sit in front of my computer, ignoring my friends and my schoolwork.

    :C wheres my babe? i just want to see her...

    QQ some more, justine...
    QQ SOME MORE!!

Tuesday, 27 October 2009

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